When I talked to {The Ex} the other day, I asked him that if his relationship with his fiancee, M., was so dark and messed-up, why he hadn't just broken up with her before dating someone else. And he said, "Well, you haven't heard my side of the story."

Um. The facts are that he started dating me before he broke up with her, lying to us both, left her high and dry on Christmas, and then went back to her again and again during our two year relationship, telling her that I had moved and that he didn't love me, and was emotionally and physically abusive to her. So no, I don't really see what side of the story he could offer that could explain or justify his behavior to anyone but himself.

So he is still in selfishness, still in self-centeredness.

I knew well-enough then, that anyone who could pursue me while still in relationship with someone else could and probably would do the same to me. And I stayed away from men like that. Only M. was a secret from everyone, so everyone thought he was single, no one knew.

And he did do to me what he did to M., he lined up Vanilla Perfume Woman while still with me.

There are things that don't sit right with me still. He still has some justification for his behavior, he's still trying to justify it. The other woman, E., has no reason to lie to me about there being more women, he has every reason to lie. Then there are the women who turned on a dime on me, who used to be nice to me and then were suddenly catty and mean. And there are still the men. The guy at the hot yoga studio. The very very long disappearance at the Cut Copy show. The constant re-telling of the story of the male movie star who made a creepy pass at him. The time he smelled of vodka. The only things these things add up to are he is untrustworthy.

I mean, at least W. tells me the truth. It's shitty that I consider that progress, but I do.