Grief

Been feeling a lot of grief lately. The FOO that lives in my head tells me I should have feelings like this anymore, that I should be over it. My real FOO, the one that's in recovery, is understanding. My mom said, "It was so recent. Of course you have grief."

Woman Anonymous wrote about grief in her blog, and she found out 2.5 years ago! Ouch...

After having so much peace and resolution about Husband's lies and infidelity, and a lot of growth and learning under my belt, I'm always surprised when I backslide. Grief still seeps in some days, even though there's no logical reason for that to happen.

I think despite progress I still grieve the loss of what I thought I had, the life I thought I was leading, the man I thought I married. And that feels like a deep thing, a heart thing. So I guess not something that my mind can resolve for me. Maybe it's just like grieving a death. Over time you come to terms with it, but there is still a loss that may always be felt as a loss